New Beginnings

Well I went had most of my hair cut off today so I am feeling nekkid. I am still not sure if I like it or not. Guess I will decide when I am trying to do it in the morning. While I was having it shampood Donn sent me the funniest sm but it was a little risque so I couldn't share it.

It was also the first day the students came I had Yr 12s for fist half of the day. They are great kids and I hope they as successful as last yrs.

Scary to think how fast the year will go but I do want to embrace life this yr and do things to enjoy it.

Random things about me.

Two Names You Go By:
1.Miss (by my students)
2. Carolyn
Two Parts of Your Heritage:
1.I was born in Southern Cross small goldfield town in middle of now where.
2. I was taught by Catholic Nuns for my first 5 yrs at school
Two Things You Are Wearing Right Now:
1. my nightie
2. my hair tie hehehehe
Two Things You Would Want in a Relationship:
1.honesty
2. laughter
Two of Your Favorite Hobbies:
1. Digi Scrapping
2.Paper Scrapping
Two Things You Want Really Badly At The Moment:
1.to lose weight
2. a new pair of shoes
Two pets you had/have:
1.Cindy my minature poodle
2. Bernie an Australian Silkie Terrier
Two people you talked to today:
1. no one its jsut after 5am
2.
Two things you did last night:
1.called all my best friends
2. prepared my Geography programs for school today
Two people that live in your house:
1.My oldest daughter Carli
2. My youngest daughter Jacy
Two things you ate today:
1.stewed apples
2.
Two people you miss:
1.Donn
2.Donn
Two Things You’re doing tomorrow:
1.Students start back at school so teaching
2. Getting my hair cut
Two vacations you’ve been on:
1.Texas
2.Bali
Two Favorite Holidays:
1. any that I spend with either Donn or my family.
2.
Two favorite Alcoholic beverages:
1.Midori
2.Baileys
Two bands you have seen live:
1. Skyhooks in the last 1970s
2. Kevin Fowler NYE at Billy Bobs Texas 2005
Two things you will do after you finish this survey:
1.get a bowl of cereal
2. comment on some layouts on DSP

Home Again

So I arrived safely just after 2pm yesterday, Mum Dad and Carli were at the airport to pick me up. As usual they dont ask too many questions about Donn but spend the time telling em about all that is happening here at home. Is probably a good thing in some ways as I tend to get very emotional when I have to talk about him for the first few days.

Carli had done a lovely job cleaning the house and she had even bought me a beautiful bunch of flowers. Sharon had invited us all over to her place for a BBQ tea which I didnt really feel like going too but my feet and ankles were so swollen and I felt so hot that I thought a swim in her spa would really help and it did.

It was also nice to catch up with the whole family but I just felt so empty inside.
I left early and ended up in bed by 8.30 and slept till 2am. I got up then un packed walked around the house for a while called Donn but he was tired and down too so we kept it brief and both went to bed.
The house is just so quiet I am struggling to feel like it is home everything just seems so foreign.
I know each day it gets a little easier but the first couple of days are just so hard trying to readjust.

Broken Heart

I feel sick to my stomach and like my heart is breaking in my chest. In just 4 hrs Donn has to take me to the airport so I can fly home and it's like all I want to do is cling to him and never let him go. He is like part of me and not being with him is like I am literally ripping my heart out of my chest and leaving it here in Fort Worth. I am scared to death that we wont get to touch again and that thought has me wanting to vomit.
I just hope he knows how much I love him.

Am I a Nerd

This is the blogging prompt for today or more to your point what is your nerdiest moment. I think mine would be that I now have friends who invite me over for a coffee then suddenly rememeber while I am there that they having some problem with their computer and ask me to look at it and 2 hours later I have basically formatted their computers changed all their settings and or cleaned out their temp internet folder defraged and they look at me as if I am some sort of alien hehehehehe.To be honest it has gotten kind of old and now I try to get them to visit me in my home or go out somewhere as it is really not fun to have to fix up poorly maintained computers.

On a better note here is my latest layout I love how this worked out.

3 sleeps

So in just 3 4 more days 3 more sleeps I start the long trek home. It scares me to death as I just dont know if I am mentally ready to face all that I need too. Mostly i think I am still not sure what I want to tell all the ppl who will ask me how Donn is and if I had a wonderful holiday. Everything just seems so cloudy maybe thats why the weather has been so bad perhaps its a reflection of my doomy thoughts. However in saying that the sun is finally shining today and it looks so beautiful outside. So maybe again as so many times in the past I need to remind myself of all the blessings in my life and remind myself I only have to deal with one moment/ one day at a time I dont have to solve every problem I am likely to face in the next 10 yrs right now in this very second.
I just hate the torment the feeling of always having to try and be in two places at once and never really making anyone happy including myself.
There are many changes I need to make and the first one being to get back to walking as if I feel like I am in control of myself it gives me the confidence to deal with what ever challenges the future will bring.

It's Snowing

well what an amazing week of weather has been so cold and was so very exciting it even snowed I spent about an hour out side taking photographs. It was so much fun, I got a hilarious pic of twister running around the tree. There is jsut something magical about snow that makes you feel young and revitalised. However all the bad weather also meant La Trice's flight has been postponed till Sunday Night so woohoo another 2 days of just Donn and I.

Stopping Time

In response to the question posed at DSP.

"If you could freeze time for less than an hour, and you’d be the only living thing that’s “alive” in that moment:
What would you do?
Why you wouldn’t be able to do it if everything were normal and the time weren’t frozen?"

Like everyone I think Money would solve a lot of the issues in my life right now as well as issues for many of the ppl I love. My parents are retiring this yr after both working their entire lives and I know they are both very concerned about how they will manage financially so I think I would like to figure out away of making some money. Be good to figure out a way to do it honestly or in a way that wouldn't create any difficulties for anyone else like maybe being able to be at a Lotto draw and make it so my lotto numbers are the ones that are in the slots.

Choose Joy

So this time in 2 weeks I willbe on my way back to Perth in fact I will be almost touching down at the Perth Airport. This time in Texas has sure been a growing experience for me with so much time on my hands and so many mixed feelings and thoughts. However the closer I get to leaving the most apparent emotion is love. I do love Donn more than anythng and is just extremely hard to think about not being with him.

We have had a real quiet week haven't been anywhere at all spent most of my days scrapping which is nice splitting my time between digital and paper layouts.