Monday, May 18, 2009

I haven't posted in a while which is kind of interesting as over the last few months posting on here has tended to be when I have reached the point of being over whelmed with emotions. I think and I mean "think" I feel differently as in something has altered. Going away too the Gold Coast seems to have given me some mental peace from torturing myself night after night about the last week and a half of Donn's life. It's like that has receded a little from being constantly in my mind and after spending a lot of time at the crop talking about some of the wonderful times I shared with Donn with a lot of the wonderful ladies their it has helped to move the most painful memories further back in my mind. So much so that yesterday I was feeling strong enough to listen to the songs Donn sang for me which then had me in floods of tears hearing his beautiful voice and listening to him pouring out his love for me by singing me mushy love songs. I just miss him I miss having him in my corner I miss having him tell me how much he loves me I miss how he made me feel like i was the most important person in the world to him.

1 comment:

Elisabeth said...

I'm glad the trip did you some good. I know what you mean about having him in your corner - there is no one in my life who "puts me first", or loves me unconditionally since my parents died, and it is hard being self reliant in that respect. I'll be glad to be where my sister is after the move; that will help us both.

I'm so glad you do have family and friends where you are, and of course two huge communities of extended family and friends, but it's different, and I know it's hard for you. You can be surrounded by people and still be alone, because that one special person isn't there.

Keep on bloggin' and we'll keep on being here for you, lady.