Holiday Disaster

What a week, sometimes you wonder why is it when things are already so tough that they jsut get keep getting harder. Christmas morning Donn and I wake up and feel good get dressed open our presents, take a heap of photographs. I cook for 2 hrs preparing, turkey, sweet yams, mashed potato, fresh green beans, corn bread muffins and stove top corn bread stuffing. We then eat the most delicious lunch at midday then we sit down to recover and at about 2 pm I start to feel sick.........
well 12 hrs later I was still vomiting and seriously thinking I was going to die. So Tuesday was spent dozing and complaining about how sore my tummy was , Wednesday was slightly better (did I mention how annoyed I was not to feel well enough to go to the Boxing Day sales at Recollections. So now its Saturday and thankfully my tummy appears to have completely recovered but what a shame we threw out so much food as we both worried it may been the food that made me sick. So Donn and i have decided after my 24 hr bug on July 4th this yr and now this on Christmas Day that in 2007 we will celebrate the holidays on random dates when we both feel well.
As for NYE well we went down to Toys "R" Us and bought Yahtzee surely we aren't tempting fate with such low key plans. Guess time will tell....

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well I've been in Texas jsut 2 weeks and yet it seems I've been here forever so traumatic has the 2 weeks been, firstly with Grandma dying the day I arrived, not being there for her funeral and now Donn having spent the last three days in Hospital with Chronic Liver disease and now finally he is home from Hospital but has been up all night with diareah as a side effect of the antibiotic he has to take. Did I mention its christmas eve I will be so glad when its over. Right now I despise everything about America , can you believe it cost Donn $266 last night for 6 prescriptions the antibiotics on its own was $93. So he paid $93 for some tablets that making him sick as a dog. I am hating everything about this situation right now I am feeling suffocated by illness and the smell of illness making my stomach heave and my skin crawl. I love Donn so very much but I just dont know how I am going to cope with having to constantly deal with someone who is sick and going to have to spend so much time focussing on get his medications right and sticking to all the controls as set by his doctor such as no salt and o more than 1 litre of fluid a day. Even then the prognosis is not good and things are going to jsut continue to get worse not better, his liver can not regenerate the only real cure is a liver transplant and I cant see that happening for someone with no health insurance. It's like your a second rate citizen here with the way their health system works. I do know there is absolutely NO way I would ever want to live here. I just feel like my whole life is a house of cards at the moment.
I do not even want to think about my own health right now and the implications Donn's illness may or may not have for me. I will deal with that when I get home.
However I need to regroup pick myself up and try do whatever I can to make a nice christmas for Donn. I just have so much anger inside at the moment its hard to come tog rips with it. I was so pleased to have him home from hospital and now he feels worse than what he did the entire time he was in the hospital.

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"It does not do to dwell on dreams and forget to live."

Memories of Grandma

My Grandma Robbie your funeral was on Thursday 14th of December and I couldnt be there. It was very difficult not being there knowing my whole family was mourning and sad and not being able to be there for them. I have some wonderful memories of my Grandma none more so than the memory of the dozens of scones she used to bake every Sunday when we lived in Southern Cross for the Golf Club. Pumpkin, plain cheese and raisins we would go over and visit with her in time to have a feast on her hot scones the kitchen was so warm from the hot stove and it was always so much fun.

As I got older and we would go visit with her she would always hug me tight and kiss me like maybe it would be the last time whe would get too. She always made me smile and feel good.

Christmas Time in Texas

Wel I arrived December 9th 2006 and so far it has been a very unusual week. Starting with finding out on arrival in the USA that my Grandmother had passed away while i was travelling. Then my luggage wasn't on the plane so very eventful.